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Monday, June 25, 2012

Am I Still Crawling?


Here is an example of my writing in this prose poem...The journey of when things go wrong in relationships…The emotional aftermath of picking up the pieces and moving on…

Feel free to comment and share ideas if you feel any emotional connection to this piece...Thanks for reading!

Am I Still Crawling?




The beginning was
over before the start…
It was daunting how she could read
my reflection, in the still waters,
like the book of the stormy seas of my mind
It is said that “still waters run deep”

Is my soul’s estuary a shallow and barren desert?
With imperfections glaring?
Have the depths of my soul
reached for the lighted surface
only to evaporate into thin air?
Wanting to feel understood
is a reflection of my heart
and yet I feel the need
to harbor, savor… selfishly
dark, undiscoverable traits...

Am I, one heart only lying to my mind?
As if I was not whole?
Four separated distinct parts…
These hands adorn the quill of
the head, the heart, body and soul...
Without synchronicity,
am I only an illusion of wholeness?

After carefully considering
my reflections in the mirror of her eyes,
a panic fell like a dark fog
blocking the vision into the book of my mind
Backed up against the corner wall,
I felt like running from my mind made cage,
ball and chain in tow
in this realization of the moment...

If… “Am I ? ” ... is the question?
Four separated, detached pieces is the answer…
I’ve been fooling myself all the while

Walking
away seemed better
than running…
Crawling away
on my hands and knees
seemed unfair.…


© 2012 Harlon Rivers

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