A deeper understanding ...
In a midwinter night’s dream i lost myself,
or was it even this year ?
It may even go back farther out of reach,
older than the ancient pyramid stones
Before the rebirth of past life deposits,
unborn orphaned motherless sediment,
flotsam of the ages adrift,
unknown for more than a thousand years
... i've been waiting for so long to see
High atop a slippery edge-cliff
i clung ―
Searching for a deeper understanding
of who i am;
Roosting like a starving bird of prey,
holding on ... born alone
With a fear in his eyes
that i could comprehend
Staring way down
deep
into an internal pitch black abyss,
just begging to see beyond ―
Mindful it's so hard looking
into the eye of a storm
Intimately parsing the recurrent source
of reigning pain
Where the perpetual fog of isolation dwells;
an inversion, preventing dispersion
of the cold and dark
nimbus
In the darkness, there bides a suffocating
emptiness,
A swelling silence what loudly knells,
leeching through a perennial ache
An abating voice within hollers unheard,
invisible as a bitter cold wind howling
relentlessly through the hollow pang;
Echoing the subsiding say
(squeezed out) ... of an orphaned soul
deep beneath the light
Awakening to realize ― once
i was alive
and
i could feel me holding on to you
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Written by: © harlon rivers ... 12/30/2017
